Say Some Lasagna...

When you just shut your eyes and you start thinking about...your past...your future...what is the first thing that comes to your mind? No, it's not that thing that you remembered just now...it's that thought you have right after my question. Some of you might say family, some might say the girlfriend...I think...of some moments I had with myself, when no one was near me to bother, to make me suffer, to make me not enjoy...well...as much as I would like to enjoy the moment. Yes, I might mention some shows, but it's more than that. It's the time when I'm alone, reflecting about everything I have lived so far...and managing to feel good about the life I'm having and how I'm living it.
Don't you ever think about the time you waste on shitty situations, being stressed out when nothing's happening? Do you ever think to yourself "Man, I gotta be selfish, gotta think about myself for a while"? Doesn't that sounds great? But then something comes up and it feels like it's saying..."Hey...I'm here...give me some attention...you know you want it...come over here...come on.."...
Looking to the clock, my time for today is short, I gotta sleep...but I'm worried about so much stuff..."Show me a sign, what is your will?"
Everyday I look to myself into the mirror and the feeling always changes. Today I'm confident! Tomorrow I'll just be plain old shit and no one is going to deny it. I need a time alone, I have my time alone...now it's just a matter of days...I gotta believe it's just a matter of days...I'm so close to something...or is it nothing? Am I making any sense?
I just want to say this: I like you and for now, that ain't going to change, so...to Hell with me.
Forgive me because it's too late and...I miss you by my side, just that.
SOGB fuck that